Man its raining cats and dogs now, you can literally hear them thudding on the tentage.

Life as of late seems to be taking interesting patterns. I think on the whole things are moving in a great direction. Slowly but surely. There are still somethings that I probably have not gotten used to but hey the only thing constant in life is change right? (pardon the cliche)

Lent on a whole has been ok too, perhaps in a way im abstaining from something much more abstract than just meat and bread and water. I feel as if God is placing me in some sort of situation that I need to endure I guess. I don't believe God plays dice (quoting Einstein) and things happen for a reason. Its weather we want to act on them or not.

Perhaps by going through this I will get stronger. Thats good.

Perhaps by going through this I'll lose some of my stupid selfish thoughts. Sometimes I can get very self centered.

Another lenten goal is to be more positive. Well so far so good haha, but that might be because things are just looking better, my question is, will I still smile when the storm comes? I hope so, I know that Jesus is there, resting. If a storm comes, I just need to wake him up and he'll tell me not to worry and calm the storm down.

I shall start this entry with Kanon again.

I don't know why this show never ceases to amaze me. It has got to be the most depressing anime I have ever watched. Yet there are times where you see the characters fight through the toughest times and triumph which makes it worth the while.

Then theres also the other side of it. But that is mine to keep.

The last few days have been ok I guess, Chinese New Year wasnt quite the huge festival I expected like the last few years. In fact it was very much mellowed. And I received probably the most shocking news of the year so far. (Some of you know it)

At least it puts the past behind. No "what ifs" to be answered. Thats good.

But in a way... its had a slight pinch for me too.

I also hope that I didnt come across too strongly at DOR...didn't mean to... my mood has been perpetually on a low the last few days...as a result of too much thinking and reflecting I guess. Ah well at least schools gonna start soon.

yay

CAW is over.



Wow it seemed like it took forever to plan, and in the blink of an eye it vanished. I guess it was tiring and frustrating planning for it...but as always, when I saw everything just flow together during the week itself, I couldn't help but feel proud we managed to do this for God.



The rally itself is a testament to Gods power and how we should trust in Him. I think there's no real need to speak of what happened, some of the other blogs would probably take the words right out of my mouth. But real kudos to everyone who worked and sacrificed for CAW, we did a great job!



I hope next years one turns out even better haha...



Ah well, now comes the boring bit, the backlog of work hah...oh well perhaps I'll write on more of my reflections in the coming days, I had a ton of fun during Rally hehe...

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I think someone else is falling into the trap..why why why...



fool.



ARGH

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Im dead tired.



Its been designing after designing after designing.... I think Im starting to get drained.



Actually thats what I envision myself doing...but the problem now is that I have something called schoolwork to deal with...which I have wonderfully neglected. And all I've done is to design. Starting from pub, to candle then to boards.



Im really just tired.



And now that the deadlines are closing in... sigh.



and then of course there are the unmentionables, which have been taking an extra toll on me lately...morale needs some boosting soon haha... maybe when I see candle #2....

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