The thrill of finishing a paper.

Its great.

Too bad there are a few more to go. haha.

you know I realise that its hard to follow ones own advice.

Its been once again, a super long time since I last blogged. Its the combination of both work and mood I guess.

Okay a big thank you to God for all His help during the Monday presentation, it was crazy scary at first, but phew I guess we managed to get something out in the end, while keeping the audience semi-entertained.

Been thinking about alot of things and choices that I've made recently. What should I do?

We also gave Aaron a suprise on Monday after school too, haha its the first sucessful (I hope) birthday suprise in a long while (no thanks to me for wrecking a few of them haha) but yeah had fun.

While staring out into the waves at night...I wondered...and wandered...perhaps entertained a thought or two before shutting everything off.

Argh. Sometimes I wish life were just a little more simpler.

Its been a while.

Its been a long long while.

Too many things have happened over the last week..I think I'll start with the more recent stuff..

Saturday:
Novena - Wanted to head out to novena in the end couldnt make it in time because of a series of most unfortunate events....shessh...it really was quite silly la...but nonetheless had a good filling dinner.

Friday:
Budak, yes yes, they never fail to impress. Not all the songs I was hoping for came up but yeah, its always great to see them live. I mean listening to them is one thing, but its really great to catch them up close and in person, they really have a sort of charisma...but Joe didnt look too well that day..haha wonder if he was sick or something...

Rest of the week:
Everything is a blurred mismash, so odds are I might get some facts wrong. I think for one thing this week has been very trying. I think in some way I might have been a little insensitive to certian people too. Yeah I guess at times I really can be terrible huh?...well please pray that I can show more sympathy and empathy towards others...

Had a good talk with Matt and Moses on one of the days..I think Thursday..haha 3Ms all in one car...

I guess at this point of time, the best way to describe how Im feeling is confused and a little frustrated. Lots of project deadlines are coming up. As usual even though I told myself that I would do things better this sem, the prcastination sets in and now several projects need to be rushed. sheesh.

Also noticed a dip in my interest for magic as of late... could have been due to the increased amount of drawings that I do...but I dont know..my magic is slowly getting stale, I need to really think of some good killer routines...

Anyway yeah thats all I can really think about.
Till next time.

3rd post in one night..amazing...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4

everyone out there should watch this.

I think this world can get so cold at times. Many of us can be so down in the dumps, and life just seems like crashing down. Sometimes all we need is a hug. Even from a stranger...its sometimes enough to make a day.

This video has been one of the most inspiring things I have ever seen. Like so many of the commentaries about it, its one that shows warmth and part of the human spirit. Its very much like Gods love...how beautiful would this world be if we could all just put aside our differences, and just smile at things.

Feeling quite crappy before this vid..now Im touched..haha...credits to Fel for sending it over...

Heres a hug to all of you out there!

and one more thing.

I hate it put it this way but.

I am not a bloody tool. I live and breathe too.

The days have been feeling empty.

Its as if a certain meaning has been lost, a sense of purpose perhaps. At the same time I feel myself distancing from the people around me. I don't know why.

How ironic isnt it, to want to get closer yet more distant from people.

Theres sometimes so much welled up inside, so much I want to say, but I can't. I want to sometimes shout at how unfair certain things can be. At how perceptions are always warped. About who I really am. At how I wished things could be.

Its all about "I" isn't it? bah such selfish thoughts.

Excuse my incoherence.