Well its New Years eve now...haha one week has passed.

Had a great trip to Malaysia, the magic videos there are really cheaper, so I bought 5 of em for myself haha..lotsa new stuff to learn now...

Oh yeah, was just talking to a friend the other day...strange memories return...I hope I dont go through that whole stupid cycle again.

Resolutions for the new year:

1) Lose Weight
Ok I really need to do this one urgently, I need to get healthy haha...but seriously yeah

2) Perform to strangers
Well hopefully I can share this art of magic to others more openly...

3) Secret #1

4) Secret #2

These are very personal, Im just adding em here so you can count haha....

Wishing everyone a happy and blessed new year ahead. Cheers.

Lotsa thoughts...

Well its 5:11pm as I write this. Its Christmas eve.

Well results were out and Im quite happy with them. No problems there. You know its funny, I got so caught up with everything that I only remembered about the results days before they were realeased. Only to forget and remember 1 hr before they came out. So not much anxiety there..heh

I think I need to reflect on the year. But I might just save that for another post. I think I will.

Well its been a busy December. Its been bittersweet. On one hand I think, no I know I've grown closer to God. I won't forget that incident just one day after the retreat. Very strange...yet enlightening.

And there was THAT other incident this holidays. I guess its caused alot of problems for a while. I lost sight of God cause I was too busy looking elsewhere. I truly thought the hope that I had been running on would come through. But as life would have it, it didnt. Perhaps next year. Perhaps I still cant stop thinking about it. And perhaps I have. I think its more likely that Im resigned to it.

You know, come to think of it, Im starting to feel resigned towards many things. Was just eating out with friends the other day. A part of me was just telling myself that there is no use talking. It was as if my opinions didnt really matter. Perhaps my view towards things are too crazy for people to comprehend. Or perhaps Im too shallow. I cant tell anymore.

I want this to be a Merry Christmas. YES I know its about the birth of Christ. I've heard wayyy too many sermons on that. In actual fact I really dont want anything for Christmas anymore. There are some things money can't buy. Maybe Im asking for too much. Maybe Im thinking too much. I don't really know.

I hope Im not praying wrongly. God isnt about asking for what I want. Its about doing what HE wants. Its so hard, to sit back and let Him take control. I wish I could. Sometimes I wish he would take away my feelings and my free will, wouldnt things be so much easier like that? I think they would.

Went for Gerri's farewell/birthday/Christmas party yesterday. It was great, good food, good music, good company AND I met a magician too. Justin, your card tricks are hilarious, you're gonna top Joel one day haha...

As a note for Gerri: Try to find a Catholic Church nearby if possible. Dont sway in faith ok? If anything, all of us are here for you. I hope your dreams come true (hint hint) haha... ok I better stop this before I get killed before the new year.

Sorry, my thoughts are kinda disorganised now.

I think though, in the end Im just glad that Im alive and that I can spend this Christmas with my family, I actually bought gifts for all of them and made a personalised card each.

Well its gonna be a busy Christmas. 2 hours to go before choir prac.

As a parting note, everyone please have a blessed and beautiful Christmas, may all your dreams come true, all the best for the year ahead.

In short...

Merry Christmas.

Phew, wonderful Christmas Bash!!

Frist and foremost, above all, I must thank God Almighty for blessing us, and for allowing us to have such a smashing good time yesterday.

Big thanks to Brian with all the practices, free food and encouragement, had a ton of fun at the musical. (The Gloria might have been just a littttllllleeee too long)

Ok huge thanks to Daniel Garcia too, haha not that he will ever come across this but yeah, Nacho Mamas Triumph and Satisfaction Gaurenteed (spelling??!) are knockout magic routines! I hope u and Paul Harris will come out with more magic!

A little sad I couldnt perform Torn and Animation..animation was just way too big to bring... and oh yeah I finally performed pyro perception haha..freaky.

But yeah great dinner, the bread and butter pudding rocked too. Thank you everyone in CSS for such a great time!

Back from retreat.

I learnt quite abit about my faith there. Although I complained that some of the sessions were kinda..um 'distant' (as in it doesnt touch your heart but you learn alot of stuff..so it feels school-like) after the retreat, I realised that it was in those sessions I found the answers to some questions that I had come to the retreat with.

I have new resolutions.

I must place God above all.

Its gonna be hard...but I'll try my best. Please keep me in your prayers everyone.

Well, went out to watch Chicken Little at the CG outing on Wednesday.

Actually, the whole outing was fun. Failed my 'spider' prank twice but hey, still managed to get some sort of reaction. Lunch was good, I finally know what meatloaf tastes like. And I want more of it.

Then of course, we went to watch the movie.

I thought it was meaningful (like all Disney stuff, there HAS to be a lesson).

There was one bit that really affected me. The part where he was on the roof, wishing and hoping. To an extent, you could even say praying I guess.

We all have dreams that we wish and hope for. But sometimes we need to be bold and face reality.

I'd like to thank the following people:

Erwin, Mr. Keen, Geraldine, Juliet, Guguzai, Yu Shan and Mr. 'Burden' Ng

Thanks for seeing me through this period. Its over I think. And even though it ended not very nicely. Thanks for being my support through all of this. It means alot to me. Perhaps there are better things to come in the future. Thanks for all the prayers too, I think they helped soften the blow.

Ok I sound stupid here haha...but yeah trying to grasp an impossible dream is stupid haha.

But yeah, it was good to hope, even if it was for a while.

You know, Christmas is coming.

Theres something I really really want.

But its hard to say if I'll get it.