Ok I spent time with God last night. I was doing some soul searching, some deep thinking.

I know I've said this before but I reversed my decision after a certain chain of events.

However, after thinking last night. I think I really really should just let it all go. Why bother with such things if it only leads to pain and confusion. I don't want to bother with this anymore.

Just like my new image. Im tired of trying. I just want to move on with life and smile.

Lord Jesus, please help me to let go. Everyone please pray for me to be able to let go without holding on. Turning back and looking with regret never helps. It keeps us anchored to the past it holds us back from our true potential.

I know I know, some of you must be going "ugh again?? oei Mark don't let your insecurities get to you" or "aiyah you're just over paranoid"

No. I think this time round, I made the decision with a clear mind. This has been a very tiring, trying and annoying episode. Yes its getting annoying believe it or not. I think when it hits a stage like that, it means I shouldn't hold on.

In anycase I will just remain passive. Its not like Im gonna close doors.

It sounds so familiar when I say this, thank you to everyone who has supported me through. I am forever grateful. I don't know how I would have gotten on without your support and encouragement.

But I think I should close this chapter and move on. Sorry I know I should close this chapter and move on. There are many other chances, and many other things to do.