Why am I so irrational sometimes?

I guess when one tends to rely more on the heart than the mind, stupid thoughts cross your mind here and there. Are they really that stupid I wonder...

I don't think they are. At least to me.

There is a poison that I need to flush out of my system. Yet it seems impossible. Its intoxicating.

In the first place, is it really poison?
Or is it a Heaven sent cure that I am just unwilling to accept?

Perhaps I cannot listen properly, perhaps God is answering me but I just can't hear.

Blargh


In other news,

1) My video recorder finally works, so at least thats one problem less for me to worry about.

2) My PSP is spoilt :(

3) I might have a plan. But I am afraid to execute it.

4) This video got me kinda sad the other day, it was some HG vid where this time round he played the cupid and helped this guy build the courage to confess his love to a girl. The producers really created suspense.

And he really did, he spoke to her from his heart with honesty.

And she said "Im, sorry"

Poor dude, and it was all on TV too... :(

I like happy endings, so yeah despite always telling myself about reality and its harshness, deep inside, somewhere... some part of me is always hoping for a happy ending for anything. Even if reality has proven to me otherwise one too many times.

what about you guys? What do you guys think?