Ok. You know what, its like 2 hours before my paper and Im typing this.

But really who cares?

I think life has taught me that all the hoping, positive thinking, self delusion, and what not in the world won't hold firm in the face of truth.

The circle feels like its going to be completed again. Damn it. I hope that it wont...but from the way things are going... it just might.

Maybe God has other plans. Sometimes I scorn myself for being too positive about things.

No. Should I risk? No. Yes. argh.

I think I can't win, but I insist on playing the game anyway. Stupid me.

Hai...I don't know. I really don't.

God please heal me now, even if it is temporary, just from 1 to 3...

In other news, last paper today yay. Oh wait I said that already.